Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Try

I'm sure a lot of you have already seen this video by Colbie Cailat.


Most women, I imagine, can relate to the message in the song.
I see this often, especially working in the beauty industry.
Women come in asking for makeup to cover things they don't like about themselves.
While I do love makeup and I'm thankful for products that can enhance beauty, I am also aware of how impossible it is to get everyone to like you based on your appearance.
I am guilty of changing myself to impress a guy or friends.
One boy mentioned he loved girls with dark hair, so I dyed my hair brown.
This other guy I spent a lot of time with always commented on girls imperfections which made me feel bad about myself and I fluctuated with my weight a lot.
I was trying to change the way I was to fit someone else's idea of who I should be.
I realized pretty quickly that this was impossible.
Everyone likes different things.
If you try to change who you are based on others, you might miss out on other opportunities.
I really love that Colbie put this video out to promote inner beauty and feeling good about yourself.
I hope you love it too!

XO Linds

Monday, July 14, 2014

Adventures and Happenings

So many things have been happening lately.
Instead of stretching it out into 5 long posts, I think I'll just post a few pics and elaborate on those a bit.
 I took that bow hunting class for Becoming an Outdoors Woman, a few weeks ago.
It was SO fun!
I'm not sure if I'll ever actually go hunting with a bow {it seems like a lot of work and a bit more humane to shoot the animal with a gun maybe?} but it was awesome to learn something new and meet women who enjoyed the outdoors and hunting.
Also, a lot of my friends commented on how thin I looked in this pic.
I have lost another 6 pounds for a grand total of 35!!
I want to lose another 20 before California {in 32 days...}!
I met, hung out, and ended another online relationship.
Well, more like, we made out a couple times and haven't spoken since...
I. Hate. Dating.
I have some family in town right now and we went hiking the other day.
We just happened to run into this momma bear, and two cubs that aren't pictured.
It was the first wild bear I have ever seen!
That's crazy because most people who have grown up in Alaska see them often.
I guess I will just have to keep going on adventures.

Right now I have tons of family in town for my Poppy's 98th birthday!
Once I get all those pics together I will write more about it.
It was such a fun time!
This weekend I'll be going to the Kenai River for some red salmon fishing!
It's been years since I've been there and even longer since I've fished.
I will be sure to take some pictures while I'm there because it is absolutely beautiful!
Happy Monday!

XO Linds

Wednesday, June 25, 2014

Happy Days

There has been a lot of #100happydays going around on Instagram lately.
I can't commit to posting everyday for 100 days, but I thought it would be great to start writing down things that make me happy or that I'm thankful for.
Too often we get caught up in the little things that are upsetting to us and completely miss something wonderful happening in our lives.
Everyday holds new opportunities.
I am happy that yesterday I got to spend the majority of the day outside in the beautiful weather.
A co-worker and I went on a bike ride along the water and it was amazing.
For the rest of the week I will be working 3-10pm so I'm very happy I spent my day off outside.
Plus the next few days will be rainy, so it works out that I'll be working anyway!
I didn't get a workout in today, but since I had an intense leg workout yesterday, plus a 2 hour bike ride, I think I can let today slide.
Anyway, I'm off to get ready for work now.
Happy Wednesday!

What are some of your get happy tips?

Do you write down things you're thankful for?

XO Linds

Monday, June 23, 2014

Life Happens

If you read my last post, I'm sure you are on pins and needles waiting to hear about Mr. Online.
Well, I'm not really sure what happened, to be honest.
One day things were fine, the next, I stopped hearing from him.
A week went by and I decided to text him.
No response. Nothing. Complete radio silence.
Of course, those crazy girl thoughts ran through my mind...

"Maybe he lost his phone..."
"Maybe I did something wrong..."
"Maybe he went out hunting and got attacked by a bear and has amnesia and can't remember me!!..."

Yeah, I'm weird.

Obviously, it was none of these.
I haven't heard from him in 2 weeks {after nearly 2 months of talking everyday}.
I think the thing that sucks the most is not having closure.
Not knowing what happened.
Of course, I can just assume he wasn't interested and was too much of a coward to tell me, but it's crazy how things can change so quickly.
The last time we talked he said he wanted to go out again and mentioned future dates.
So, lots of confusion.
The other night I was so close to calling him.
Instead, I did the adult thing and googled "What to do when a guy stops texting you."
Yes, seriously.
I actually read some really great advice.
A counselor said that when you text someone wanting "closure" you're really hoping to clear up some miscommunication, wanting to restart the relationship, basically not wanting to let go.
I'm very self aware and hate the thought of seeming desperate or pathetic towards a man.
The article goes on to say that not having closure can help you deal with anxiety or uncertainty in the future.
I thought that was really interesting.
Sometimes we won't get answers or the perfect ending we were hoping for.
And that can be a good thing!
Because I have a degree in psychology, I find it interesting when I experience things that I actually learned.
For instance, the stages of grief:

Denial
Anger
Bargaining
Depression
Acceptance

At first, I was in total denial.
I was certain he would contact me with some great excuse as to why he couldn't get ahold of me before.
After a week, and him ignoring my inquiring text, I got angry!
Oh boy, was I angry with him.
A few days later I skipped over bargaining and headed straight for depression.
I realize 2 months isn't very long, but a loss is a loss and it still hurts.
I wouldn't say I was clinically depressed by any means.
More so, I was sad and lonely and upset.
I allowed myself to wallow and eat some junk food that I hadn't been eating for a while.
And you know what?
It didn't help.
I just felt sad and sick.
I quickly realized that it's not ok to let someone who does so little for me, control so much of my mind, feelings, and emotions. {I read that quote on "muffintopless" Instagram and died a million times at how profound I thought it was! haha}.
No reason to throw my life off balance for a little boy who had such little regard for my feelings and couldn't be bothered to even so much as send a text letting me know he wasn't interested.
Now, I am in the acceptance stage.
For whatever reason, he was a part of my life for a short time and there is something to be learned and gained from the experience.
Life happens...which is also a song I love and have been listening to a lot lately.
"Life happens and most of it's out of your hands so why don't you get up and dance"

Now, instead of wondering what happened, I try to remind myself he just wasn't prepared to handle all of my fabulousness!
It still stinks going from the excitement of a new relationship to being alone again.
However, I know beyond a shadow of a doubt I'd rather be with someone who cares about me and respects me enough to communicate with me and not just fit me in when it's convenient for him.
This is how we weed out the boys from the men and I'll be damned if I don't hold out for a real man after all this time!
In the meantime, I am gearing up for my bow hunting class and making moves forward at work.
I'll fill you in on that a little bit more soon!
I have a feeling exciting things are on the horizon!

XO Linds

Thursday, June 19, 2014

Switching It Up

Ever since I was little I have been around hunters, fishermen, and outdoor enthusiast.
Much of that has to do with the fact that I live in Alaska and my family is very much into those things.
Sure, I've done some fishing throughout the years, gone to the shooting range, and I slept in a tent...once.

Fishing in Seward, AK 2011

I wasn't usually taken on these trips because they were deemed "man trips".During my time in Virginia I became friends with some guys who were really into that outdoorsy lifestyle and loved to go out hiking, camping, fishing, etc...
I think it had to do with their perception of me being too girly, though.
Now that I am back in Alaska, I've had this extreme desire to become more outdoorsy.
And since the love life has come to a screeching halt {I don't foresee a third date with Mr. Online because apparently ignoring me is the best way to get out of seeing me again...you'll hear more on that later, I'm sure} it looks like I have all the time in the world to focus on myself and what I want to do!
This is why I've decided to take a class through the Department of Fish & Game called BOW: Becoming an Outdoors Woman.
I love that the focus is to empower women and make them more confident in the outdoors.
There are classes for fishing, kayaking, shooting, hunting...everything.
The first class I signed up for is an intro to bow hunting and I cannot wait!
I will be learning about hunting and shooting the bow.
My inspiration is Eva Shockey!
I want that bow and I want those boots!

She is girly, hunts in pink camo, and is engaged to a hockey player.
Jealous!
She basically stole my dream life.
Anyway, through this class I am hoping to gain more confidence, maybe meet some friends, and try my skills at the great outdoors.
I think my dad is kind of proud that his little girl is finally showing some interest in hunting.
Guess I better start saving up for those hunting trips! ;)
Anyway, I'm off to the food truck festival with my momma.
I'm dreaming of tacos, burgers, and cupcakes already!

XO Linds

Monday, June 9, 2014

Monday Musings

It's been a while since I did a Monday Musings.
Basically it's a jumble of randomness, so pretty much the same as all my posts.
I really want to log more about my weight loss, as far as exercise and nutrition, because I've had some questions about it.
So hopefully I will get on that soon!
Until then, I leave you with these thoughts...

What I'm Listening To: Dierks Bentley's Riser Album


Seriously, his entire album is amazing.
He is probably my favorite right now.
Even amazingly attractive, successful country stars have heartache too.
Who knew? ;)

What I'm Reading: The Fault in Our Stars by John Green


Yes, I know I'm way late to the party on this one.
I'm still finishing up Gone Girl and the list of books I have on my Kindle is semi-embarrassing
I've always kind of jumped around when it comes to books.
Read a few chapters then read another book, then back to the first.
Unless I'm instantly hooked on a book and I read it in 2 days {ahem, Twilight...}.
So far, the list looks something like this:

The Single Woman by Mandy Hale: I can relate so much to her, it's scary. Fun fact, she isn't single anymore.
Where'd You Go, Bernadette by Maria Semple: I heard so many amazing things about this book. I can't wait to read it.
Divergent by Veronica Roth: Yes, I still haven't started it...
The Best of Me by Nicholas Sparks: I have been half way through this book for months now. It's a great story though and it'll probably be the book I finish next.
I have 3 books by Shauna Niequist waiting for me - Bittersweet, Cold Tangerines, and Bread & Wine. I truly love her writing. There's something calming and inspiring about it. Which is probably why I bought all 3 books and haven't read them yet...haha Oops! 

What I'm Watching: Orange is the New Black Season 2
I guess you could say I've been binge watching this.
The show has been out 3 days and I'm already on episode 10.
I love it!

What I'm Eating: Baked Chicken & Black Bean Tacos from Simply Taralynn


I've made these before and I plan on making them this week.
They are sooo delicious.
I am addicted to Mexican food and these were amazing.
They come out crunchy and full of flavor.
Even my dad, who normally sticks his nose up at modified recipes to make them healthier, liked them.
I love Taralynn's blog, and anyone looking for inspiration for health and weight loss should definitely check her out!

What I'm Wearing: Honestly, my fashion has been kind of boring lately.
I wear my Sephora uniform and workout clothes a lot because that's what I've been doing with my time.
Now that I'm losing weight, I need to find some cute clothes that fit well.
Here are some Pinterest outfits I'm loving for summer {keep in mind, Alaska summers can still be chilly}:




I've always loved the mix of structured and flowly.
Skinny jeans with a ruffly top and blazer over a baggy tee.
Just enough to make an outfit look put together without being dressy.

I hope you all have a great day.
Happy Monday!

XO Linds

Thursday, June 5, 2014

Second Date

Well, since my first date post went well, I thought I'd share my second one with you!
For a little while I wasn't sure there would be a second date.
There was a little bit of drama {mostly because of me and mostly in my head}, but it did force us to have the awkward "do you want to get to know me better" conversation.
That might be a thing I just made up, but I'm pretty sure you understand what I mean.
Sometimes I feel like boys are just clueless.
Then I remember that guys think girls are crazy.
I guess what it comes down to is we're just different.
I'll be completely honest, dating - especially online dating - is new to me.
You don't want to let the other person know you like them too soon, but you don't want to get stuck in the friend zone either.
There's that fear that he may decide I'm not good enough, pretty enough, outdoorsy enough {this guy loves the outdoors!}.
That's a really unhealthy worry to have and I'm working on it.
I keep reminding myself that dating should be fun, that I AM awesome and it's his loss if he decides to not pursue this further.
Anyway, about date numero dos...
This time we decided to meet for dinner.
I was less nervous than the first date, but still had some butterflies.
At the hockey game, we didn't exactly have to keep conversation flowing.
At dinner, you definitely have to be talking or it's super awkward.
Luckily there wasn't any of that.
Our waitress was this hilarious, tiny, Japanese woman who was so adorable!
Maybe she knew it was the beginning stages of a relationship because the first thing she said when she came to bring us our water was, "Ooooh hello gorgeous, you are just so pretty! Isn't she beautiful!?"
I think I turned 10 shades of red, but it made me feel really relaxed and laugh right off the bat.
As we were leaving {at 10pm} she says, "Where are you heading now?
I said, "Oh, I'm just going home."
She replied, "No, no! The night is still young. You should hang out longer!!"
Seriously, is this woman a matchmaker or what?
I loved her and we definitely need to go back to see her.
Anyway, I loved learning new things about him on this date.
We have been talking about 6 1/2 weeks, but since this is only the second time we've gone out, and really the first time we've gotten to talk much face to face, it was really nice to talk a little bit deeper.
Afterwards we talked outside for a few minutes and hopefully we'll be getting together next week too.
I gave him a hug and accidentally stepped on his foot, because I'm clumsy and awkward like that...but I think he finds it endearing, or at least I hope. haha
So, things are going well and hopefully moving in the right direction.
It feels strange to be telling all of you about my love life, but I think only about 10 or so people really read this so I'll be fine. haha
Just wanted to give you an update, especially you Erin! :)
Thanks for joining me on this crazy adventure!

XO Linds