Monday, September 1, 2014

Wake Me Up When September Ends

Goodbye August, hello September!
Meaning all things Fall and pumpkins has begun.
It also means I have officially been home for 1 year!
This time last year I arrived back to Alaska ready for my next adventure.
And what an adventure it's been!!
I am such a different person in almost every single way.
I've lost 36 pounds and will continue because my goal is 70!
I miss my friends in VA so much, but am making new friends here.
It's been a slow process and sometimes I can get really lonely; however, it forces me to focus on myself...there's been some deep reflection going on lately. haha
I am slowly becoming a different person, for the better I think.
Breaking out of my shell which was always my comfort zone.
I was always more comfortable being the friend on the sidelines while I watched all my friends go out on dates.
I was always more comfortable hanging out with the same group of friends, doing the same things.
I never lost quite enough weight because I constantly gained it back and was afraid of defeat yet again.
That's not the norm anymore.
I knew I needed a change and moving home was exactly what I needed to transition from who I was to who I have become.
I'm excited for the adventure ahead and the changes that are to come.
August was a fun, crazy month.
The highlight was going to California to visit family.
 Got to meet my cousins baby, Hayden, at 6 weeks old! <3
 Ventura, CA
Seriously, couldn't leave without a In-N-Out stop!
Oh, I got a haircut!

I didn't want to leave.
My cousin keeps telling me to move there and live with her...
I'm so tempted.
I told her after I ran down the dating pool in Alaska I'd consider it.
Oh, you want to know more about my love life, do you?
Let me tell you.
If you need some excitement in your life, get the Tinder app.
I have actually met some really cool guys through it.
A few weirdos, but for the most part I've really enjoyed it.
This video on Buzzfeed made me laugh so hard.
It's so true.

It's just fun to meet random people {obviously, be safe about it} and go out and have a good time.
There's no pressure and I've actually become friends with some of the guys on there.
The thing that sucks about it is it shows you guys around your area which sometimes means he could be just passing through for work.
This is my current situation and I'm super bummed.
I just keep reminding myself...
Happy Labor Day, folks!
XO Linds

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

Adventures in Dating

This past month was a whirlwind.
I've already talked a little bit about how crazy it was with family and work and I don't see it slowing down anytime soon.
What I failed to mention was I have been dating a lot more lately.
I sometimes don't want to get too personal with my love life on the blog because it would be so easy for a guy I'm seeing to look it up and read everything I'm thinking about him.
That being said, some dates are just TOO good to not write about.
For my first story, I've decided to go with a recent date.
This guy seemed pretty funny and nice over text.
He was cute and had a good job {which he constantly talked about - i.e. making tons of money and how he was super high up in the company...blah blah blah}.
I agreed to meet him one night for a drink.
I became increasingly unsettled about it when he started texting me things like, "oh my gosh I'm SOOO excited to meet you! We are going to have so much fun!!"
Dude. Chill.
We met and he seemed alright though.
We went into the bar and ordered our drinks.
I had a beer and he had some fruity shot.
Even the bartender gave him the beer before I said, "Oh no, he had the girly drink, I had the beer."
That gave the bartender quite a laugh.
The next hour or so I had to endure this 24 year old telling me about his 8 cars, how he went to boarding school in London {and he pulled out the most fake British accent I've ever heard}, he said he went to MIT, how rich he was, his experience dating a celebrity in LA, "accidentally" showing me a dick pic on his phone, and basically just making an ass of himself.
So, after his 5th girly shot, he was definitely feeling good and thought it was an appropriate time to put his hand on my leg.
At this point I said I had to get up early and needed to get to bed.
He asked me if he could walk me to my car.
I just expected him to be a gentleman and give me a hug or kiss me on the cheek.
I go in for a hug and he just plants one on me.
He told me, "I get what I want and I see myself with you."
Not only is that super annoying, it's creepy.
I've been dodging him the best I can, but gosh, kid is persistent.
The absolute BEST part of this whole thing is, when I got home I googled him.
It sent me straight to his Facebook page...
He went to community college in Arizona.

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

The Month of July

So, this month has been crazy!
I started working full time at Sephora so a lot more evenings and most weekends have involved work.
Like I mentioned in my previous post, I had a ton of family up here celebrating my Grandpa's 98th birthday and we also did some fishing on the Kenai River.
It was a blast!
Fishing Day 1:
And Fishing Day 2:
I fished for 2 days and caught this lovely red salmon.
I was pretty dang excited!

As we were driving back home from the river we ran into this pretty girl.
The other night I was going for a run {at 10pm} and I looked up and this is what I saw.
I mean, seriously!
Does it get any better than that?!
I am so happy I moved home and these little things are awesome reminders.
So, that's just a little update for ya!
I will have a new hot products post soon because I've been trying so many awesome things lately!
Have a great rest of July and I'll see you in August!

XO Linds

Tuesday, July 15, 2014


I'm sure a lot of you have already seen this video by Colbie Cailat.

Most women, I imagine, can relate to the message in the song.
I see this often, especially working in the beauty industry.
Women come in asking for makeup to cover things they don't like about themselves.
While I do love makeup and I'm thankful for products that can enhance beauty, I am also aware of how impossible it is to get everyone to like you based on your appearance.
I am guilty of changing myself to impress a guy or friends.
One boy mentioned he loved girls with dark hair, so I dyed my hair brown.
This other guy I spent a lot of time with always commented on girls imperfections which made me feel bad about myself and I fluctuated with my weight a lot.
I was trying to change the way I was to fit someone else's idea of who I should be.
I realized pretty quickly that this was impossible.
Everyone likes different things.
If you try to change who you are based on others, you might miss out on other opportunities.
I really love that Colbie put this video out to promote inner beauty and feeling good about yourself.
I hope you love it too!

XO Linds

Monday, July 14, 2014

Adventures and Happenings

So many things have been happening lately.
Instead of stretching it out into 5 long posts, I think I'll just post a few pics and elaborate on those a bit.
 I took that bow hunting class for Becoming an Outdoors Woman, a few weeks ago.
It was SO fun!
I'm not sure if I'll ever actually go hunting with a bow {it seems like a lot of work and a bit more humane to shoot the animal with a gun maybe?} but it was awesome to learn something new and meet women who enjoyed the outdoors and hunting.
Also, a lot of my friends commented on how thin I looked in this pic.
I have lost another 6 pounds for a grand total of 35!!
I want to lose another 20 before California {in 32 days...}!
I met, hung out, and ended another online relationship.
Well, more like, we made out a couple times and haven't spoken since...
I. Hate. Dating.
I have some family in town right now and we went hiking the other day.
We just happened to run into this momma bear, and two cubs that aren't pictured.
It was the first wild bear I have ever seen!
That's crazy because most people who have grown up in Alaska see them often.
I guess I will just have to keep going on adventures.

Right now I have tons of family in town for my Poppy's 98th birthday!
Once I get all those pics together I will write more about it.
It was such a fun time!
This weekend I'll be going to the Kenai River for some red salmon fishing!
It's been years since I've been there and even longer since I've fished.
I will be sure to take some pictures while I'm there because it is absolutely beautiful!
Happy Monday!

XO Linds

Wednesday, June 25, 2014

Happy Days

There has been a lot of #100happydays going around on Instagram lately.
I can't commit to posting everyday for 100 days, but I thought it would be great to start writing down things that make me happy or that I'm thankful for.
Too often we get caught up in the little things that are upsetting to us and completely miss something wonderful happening in our lives.
Everyday holds new opportunities.
I am happy that yesterday I got to spend the majority of the day outside in the beautiful weather.
A co-worker and I went on a bike ride along the water and it was amazing.
For the rest of the week I will be working 3-10pm so I'm very happy I spent my day off outside.
Plus the next few days will be rainy, so it works out that I'll be working anyway!
I didn't get a workout in today, but since I had an intense leg workout yesterday, plus a 2 hour bike ride, I think I can let today slide.
Anyway, I'm off to get ready for work now.
Happy Wednesday!

What are some of your get happy tips?

Do you write down things you're thankful for?

XO Linds

Monday, June 23, 2014

Life Happens

If you read my last post, I'm sure you are on pins and needles waiting to hear about Mr. Online.
Well, I'm not really sure what happened, to be honest.
One day things were fine, the next, I stopped hearing from him.
A week went by and I decided to text him.
No response. Nothing. Complete radio silence.
Of course, those crazy girl thoughts ran through my mind...

"Maybe he lost his phone..."
"Maybe I did something wrong..."
"Maybe he went out hunting and got attacked by a bear and has amnesia and can't remember me!!..."

Yeah, I'm weird.

Obviously, it was none of these.
I haven't heard from him in 2 weeks {after nearly 2 months of talking everyday}.
I think the thing that sucks the most is not having closure.
Not knowing what happened.
Of course, I can just assume he wasn't interested and was too much of a coward to tell me, but it's crazy how things can change so quickly.
The last time we talked he said he wanted to go out again and mentioned future dates.
So, lots of confusion.
The other night I was so close to calling him.
Instead, I did the adult thing and googled "What to do when a guy stops texting you."
Yes, seriously.
I actually read some really great advice.
A counselor said that when you text someone wanting "closure" you're really hoping to clear up some miscommunication, wanting to restart the relationship, basically not wanting to let go.
I'm very self aware and hate the thought of seeming desperate or pathetic towards a man.
The article goes on to say that not having closure can help you deal with anxiety or uncertainty in the future.
I thought that was really interesting.
Sometimes we won't get answers or the perfect ending we were hoping for.
And that can be a good thing!
Because I have a degree in psychology, I find it interesting when I experience things that I actually learned.
For instance, the stages of grief:


At first, I was in total denial.
I was certain he would contact me with some great excuse as to why he couldn't get ahold of me before.
After a week, and him ignoring my inquiring text, I got angry!
Oh boy, was I angry with him.
A few days later I skipped over bargaining and headed straight for depression.
I realize 2 months isn't very long, but a loss is a loss and it still hurts.
I wouldn't say I was clinically depressed by any means.
More so, I was sad and lonely and upset.
I allowed myself to wallow and eat some junk food that I hadn't been eating for a while.
And you know what?
It didn't help.
I just felt sad and sick.
I quickly realized that it's not ok to let someone who does so little for me, control so much of my mind, feelings, and emotions. {I read that quote on "muffintopless" Instagram and died a million times at how profound I thought it was! haha}.
No reason to throw my life off balance for a little boy who had such little regard for my feelings and couldn't be bothered to even so much as send a text letting me know he wasn't interested.
Now, I am in the acceptance stage.
For whatever reason, he was a part of my life for a short time and there is something to be learned and gained from the experience.
Life happens...which is also a song I love and have been listening to a lot lately.
"Life happens and most of it's out of your hands so why don't you get up and dance"

Now, instead of wondering what happened, I try to remind myself he just wasn't prepared to handle all of my fabulousness!
It still stinks going from the excitement of a new relationship to being alone again.
However, I know beyond a shadow of a doubt I'd rather be with someone who cares about me and respects me enough to communicate with me and not just fit me in when it's convenient for him.
This is how we weed out the boys from the men and I'll be damned if I don't hold out for a real man after all this time!
In the meantime, I am gearing up for my bow hunting class and making moves forward at work.
I'll fill you in on that a little bit more soon!
I have a feeling exciting things are on the horizon!

XO Linds