Thursday, April 2, 2015

Products I'm Loving and Life Update

Oh, hey there!
Yep, still alive.
The past several months have been a whirlwind.
So many heartaches, so many changes, so much growing.
What kind of changes, you might ask?
One major change I made recently was with my job.
I went part time at Sephora and got a full time specialist position at Apple!
I am beyond excited for this and feel a bit more on track with my future.
In January, I was the maid of honor in high school/current/always best friends' wedding!
It was in Austin, TX, so I got to cross off two things on my 35 by 35 {visiting a new city and being the maid of honor!}

 Yes, we know we look like sisters and people ask us that every time we're together.

 Downtown Austin <3

 Malorie {bridesmaid}, Amy {photographer/hair/makeup for bride}, me, and Allie!
I became fast friends with Malorie and Amy.
Allie sure knows how to pick good people.

 The bridal/lingerie shower!

 I flippin loved this dress!

 Me and Malorie, one of the other bridesmaids/new bestie!
She was so awesome!
Not gonna lie, I was pretty impressed with how I did my hair/makeup.

I love the pictures!
Didn't Allie look gorgeous!?
My first Whataburger experience

That is a really, really quick life update.
Now, on to some favorite products!

I use this after I get waxes. 
I always get really bad bumps, redness, and ingrown hairs.
I've tried everything. Ev.Er.EEEE.THING!
Benedryl, exfoliating, trying different waxes, I don't work out after waxes, and I try to not wear clothes that rub on my skin.
This stuff has been my lifesaver lately.
While it doesn't completely stop ingrowns for me, it definitely helps calm down my skin and reduce redness.
I love the tiny bit of cooling/tingling sensation too.

This stuff has been amazing for my dry winter skin.
It's a scrub packed with coffee grounds, sweet almond oil, orange essence, and vitamins and minerals.
They claim it helps with dry skin, stretch marks, cellulite, eczema, psoriasis, varicose veins, acne, and scarring.
I mostly use it on my arms where I'm super dry.
My skin is left feeling soft and moisturized {not oily!}
I haven't noticed a huge difference in the stretch marks, but mine are old and pretty faint already.
I've only tried the original scrub, but there is also a coconut coffee scrub, cacao coffee scrub, and peppermint coffee scrub all targeting specific needs.
Give it a whirl, girl!

I'll leave it to those two for now.
I have a huge list compiled of products I want to talk about, just wanted to kick it off with a few I've been using a lot lately!
I will be back SOON.


Monday, January 5, 2015

2014 Reflections and 2015 Resolutions

Here we go...another post about New Years Resolutions.
Last year my biggest resolution was to lose a certain amount of weight.
While I didn't reach that specific weight loss goal, I did lose over half the amount at 37 pounds!
I'm taking this as a huge win seeing as how, in addition, I lost 10% body fat, 8 inches off my chest, 8.5 inches off my waist, and 6.25 inches off my hips!
It's crazy to think I had that much to lose in the first place.
And it's even more crazy to think of how much further I have to go!

This year has been a roller coaster.
It was my first full year back at home.
I went through so many changes, and am still trying to process everything.
One blessing was getting to spend my Poppy's (Grandpa) last year with him.
He passed in late November at the age of 98!
 Poppy teaching me to play solitaire
We had a big family reunion/birthday celebration this summer.
Perfect timing as he began to go downhill quickly soon after.
Forever in our hearts.

Of course, you know all about {or a lot about, at least} my dating adventures over the past year.
If you live outside of Alaska, I don't think you'll ever truly understand the gravity of the situation up here.
An example:
A few weeks ago I met this guy.
He asked me on a date and we went out on a Wednesday night.
Thursday night, we were at the bar where he works {where we met} and this girl started talking to me about her ex.
She was a little drunk and was going on and on about him.
Friday night, I went back to said bar {I swear I'm not an alcoholic} and was approached by another guy.
So, I'm talking to him and boy number one is working behind the bar.
They start talking and I quickly realize they're friends.
As I continue to talk to the second guy, he says, "Shit, my ex is right over there..."
I turn around and see the girl from the night before.

This is what I have to work with up here.
Everyone knows everyone and has likely already dated someone you know.
I have seen all three of them multiple times since then and this past weekend I ran into a boy I had hoped to never see again.
He used me and hurt me and left me with no closure, but when he saw me he jumped at the chance to tell me how beautiful I was and how much he had liked me...but now he had a girlfriend and was happy.
I wanted to punch him.
I don't really want to say I'm giving up on dating, but my hopes aren't quite as high this year.

I guess the last high light was becoming management at work.
I won't lie and say I love retail and it's my path in life, but Sephora has been fun.
I have met a lot of great people and found some incredible products I will use for life.
I know I keep saying this, but I will be doing more posts about certain products that I use and love!

So anyways, my goals for 2015:

-Lose 33 pounds {for a grand total of 70 pounds in 2 years!!}
My first meal of 2015 was a donut, so not exactly starting strong...

-Move into my own apartment
I love not having to pay rent, but I'm ready for my own place again.

-Take guitar lessons
I've owned my guitar for 9 years and I can't play it at all.
I've already got an instructors number so hopefully I'll be a guitarist by the end of 2015!

-Worry less
I've always been a very joyful person. Optimistic. Happy.
As of late, I've been feeling a little down.
I know this is a combination of a lot of things {lack of sunshine, boy drama, feeling stuck in a rut}, but it tends to put me in a mood where I stress over the little things.
Like, what if I never go on a second date?
Will I ever reach my goal weight?
Why can't I just finish my masters already and have a fulfilling career?!
I have to take a step back and realize I'm only 27.
My life doesn't have to fit someone else's timeline.
As long as I'm doing what I need to do to get where I need to go, that's all I can do!
Wow, that was kind of a roundabout sentence...I think you get it.

So, those are my goals.
I'm sure I can accomplish at least 1! haha
Do you have any 2015 goals or favorite memories of 2014?

Monday, December 29, 2014

Girl Crush

I've been obsessed with Megan Davies for a while now.
You could maybe say I have a girl crush on her.
Speaking of, she recently did a cover of Little Big Town's song "Girl Crush" and it's amazing.
Every time I see her play it makes me want to take my guitar out.
Then I get frustrated because I will never be as good as she is.
Maybe my New Years Resolution will be to learn to play my guitar that I've owned for 9 years.
Anyway, this song is currently on repeat.
I always seem to gravitate towards songs about heartbreak and unrequited love.
These types of songs cut to my core, especially when they're poetic and quiet.
I think if I could do anything in life it would be to play music and sing.
Maybe not for a living, but for a hobby or be a local musician.
I've always been musical.
I grew up playing the piano and singing.
After college, I didn't really have anywhere to sing or play at.
Making music with friends used to make me so happy.
I think, for me, singing with someone is such a deep, connecting thing and I miss that.
In a world where that are so many things dragging us down every day, it's nice to find something that makes up happy.
Music makes me happy.
I want to share that happiness with others.
I think I might have just talked myself into taking guitar lessons in hope of becoming the next Megan Davies!

Wednesday, December 3, 2014

Manhattan on a Tuesday Night

I know it's been a hot second since I've blogged, but Over It October didn't work out too well.
In fact, I didn't get over anything and possibly found myself in even more of a conundrum when it comes to men.
Oy vey!
These past few months seriously made me consider moving to a bigger city with more men, but that seems a bit drastic...until I drain the dating pool in Alaska, that is.
I did, however, go on a really awesome date last night.
I'll be honest, I was not really looking forward to it even though it was my idea.
I suggested drinks and he countered with drinks and dinner at a pretty nice place.
This sparked my interest a little bit more.
He was extremely cute I might add.
Still, I had been burned by one too many guys that I felt this would be another flop.
I also have a tendency to get hooked on guys who act like a-holes towards me, which happened and has held me back from dating lately...yes, I know this is an unhealthy problem.

I don't really know when this blog became a dating/share my emotional issues with the whole world {or 3 people who will read this} blog, but let's just go with it, ok?
I promise I will have some more blogs up in the next few weeks about my weight loss, job update, family, and birthday/holiday festivities!
But for now, back to the date!
My last "date" invited me to a movie and when we got there he said, "So, I've got my ticket..." and made me pay for myself then left just as abruptly when the movie ended.
Anything date after that would have been considered amazing, in my opinion.
But this date was actually really great!
He was nice, attractive, smart, and funny {i.e. he must be crazy or I really hit the jackpot!}.
The moment I knew we'd get along: He told me he hated mushrooms and loved Indiana Jones.
I could have married him right then and there and we found quite a few more things we had in common throughout the evening.
He also complimented me on my appearance a couple times in a very respectful and sweet way.
He kissed my cheek when we were saying goodbye and didn't make any inappropriate advances.
I have had guys practically maul me on first dates before.
Remember this guy?
I feel like that really separates the men from the boys.
All in all, it was a great night and it convinced me there are some good guys left.
Now, to see if there will be a date #2...

P.S. the title of this post was just an attempt at a creative way of saying I had a Manhattan to drink on our date. It was delicious.

Friday, October 10, 2014

I Lived

Lately, I've been thinking about all the things I want to do in my life.
Where I want to travel, what career I want, what kind of future I want.
Sometimes it gets a little frustrating.
I don't have money to travel right now.
I can't really move into a career I want until I finish my masters.
Some things in life are beyond my control.
Then, I start to think of all the amazing things I've done in my life.
All the trips I've taken.
My 4 incredible years at college.
Relationships that have come and gone, but impacted me for a lifetime.
It's so easy to get bogged down in life.
Responsibilities come with being an adult, but that doesn't mean you can't live your life how you want to live it!
When I reach the end of my life and hopefully get to look back on my adventures and choices and mistakes, I truly hope I won't have regrets and say, "What if..."
Life doesn't always go the way you planned.
I've realized there is beauty in the unexpected.
There is something to be gained from the things that seem like epic failures at the time.
Every *mistake* can be the beginning of something more beautiful, a life more meaningful.
How can we truly know grace if we never screw up?
How can we really know love if we never let ourselves be vulnerable?
...even when the possibility of getting hurt {again} is staring us in the face...
This song is from one of my favorite albums ever.
I listened to it tonight and the lyrics really resonated with me in a way they hadn't before.
There is so much in this life I want to do, want to see, want to be.
I have decided to not let money or lack of education or anything else stop me.
I am the only person who can live my life.
I may not live it perfectly to everyone else's standards.
I may get hurt along the way.
But at the end of the day, at the end of my life, I want to say, "I lived!"

Saturday, October 4, 2014


Happy Saturday!
Today I had to be at work at 7am and ya know what?
I was incredibly happy today!
I had double the coffee and everyone at work kept commenting on how hyper/happy I seemed.
That in itself made me smile.
I mean, I was bouncing off the walls mostly because of the coffee, but also I just felt good!
My two friends whom I recruited to join me in 'Over It October' have been sending me texts everyday letting me know what they did for themselves that made them happy!
Today, well tonight, I am going out with a friend to drink, maybe dance, and hopefully get a free drink or two...? haha
It should be a good time!
Just wanted to check in and make sure you do something for yourself this weekend that will help you smile! :)


Friday, October 3, 2014

Oh Happy Day

Today was tough, but I was determined to find happiness.
I desperately needed new running shoes after obliterating mine from hiking the past few days.
They are covered in mud.
They're also almost 1 1/2 years old and I put a lot of miles into those shoes.
I love Brooks so I decided to stick with them...

I was torn at first because the shop down the street had these shoes in a really pretty coral/pink ombre color, but they were a little more expensive.
I went home and decided since my last pair of shoes were super bright pink I would go for purple/blue ones.
Plus, it kind of reminds me of a that got me excited too! haha
They should be here in about a week and since it's supposed to snow soon {EEEK!} they will stay nice and pretty longer from just being used at the gym.

The reason today was so tough was because it's been officially a week since my last boy debacle.
I can be really hard on myself after relationships end, even if I know the guy is just a jerk.
I obsess over every text, conversation, meetup...what I did wrong, what I could have done instead.
I know, it's not healthy and I'm working on it!
The truth is, the right guy won't make me wonder if I did something wrong.
I have a lot of emotions to process right now.
I'm the type of person who associates my emotions through music.
I've been listening to a lot of Sara Bareilles lately.
Her songs are heart wrenching, honest, gutsy...
Girl just gets it!
She is so, so talented and seems really fun!
How could you not love her?!
*Warning* Curse words galore in this next song.
The first time I heard this song I was listening to Sara Bareilles station at work through my headphones.
At first, it seemed so cute and fun...then she just started to dropping f-bombs and I laughed so hard.
But isn't that song so true?!

Anyway, I have to be at work bright and early tomorrow and have a fun Saturday night planned, so this girl needs her beauty sleep!
Night loves!